the babies

birthday boy

Devin was 43 yesterday - we went to the SF MOMA, followed by a shopping excursion in search of the perfect cargo pants - for anyone looking for the type of 3/4 length pants which have drawstrings at the bottom, they are damn hard to find for men - after looking in North Face, Banana Republic, Gap, American Eagle, Abercrombie and Old Navy, nuthin! we're still looking. the quest continues.

on our way home, Devin decided to get off at Church St. - 1 stop away from where he lives - and said simply, 'Follow the Leader.' We ended up at a sushi place which had always been darn good cheap food - well now No Name Sushi on Church Street is just 'cheap.' Apparently there was a change in the management and magically, carrots have appeared in the miso soup, and for some reason a side of potatoes are included (???). The final blow which nailed the coffin shut was the last piece of abalone - so funky that I didn't want to chance it - ended up in my napkin. Blech! Since we weren't real satisfied & still slightly hungry, we got pizza and vegan carrot cake - I don't care what anyone says, the carrot cake at Harvest Mkt. - vegan or not - is some of the best damn carrot cake I've ever had. I had a candle at the ready, stuck it in the cream cheese icing and sang him happy birthday. A little Monty Python's Flying Circus before bed, and the day was done. It was a birthday which I hope not to forget - although knowing me, I probably will!

hikin'

THIS is why we put up with the high prices, the traffic, the rat race! Well, I don't really do the rat race, but you get my point - it's all worth it when you can drive for 30 minutes and be surrounded in majestic redwoods and waterfalls. Anna, Cheryl & I had a stellar hike - I especially enjoyed playing 'Chase' downhill!

fashionistas

Priya and Yugala are GENIUSES. I have been a friend and devoted fan for years of their clothing lines, YUGALA and SAFFRON - they recently moved into a new studio in the Mission and they are ready to take off. Priya has huge meetings coming up in New York next week, so SEND GOOD THOUGHTS! The clothes are career-casual and urban chic - worn by women who love Ann Taylor, BUT their clothes are hipper than Ann Taylor could ever hope to be. Check 'em out! www.saffronrarethreads.com

Interview!

I have an interview tomorrow with World Expeditions - cross your fingers!

I PASSED MY REAL ESTATE EXAM!!!

It's so amazing when you're sure that you failed at something, then it turns out that you did just fine...and the pure delight that goes with achieving a meaningful milestone. I feel like I can do anything!!!

unagi!

Dennis was in town this week! As usual, food was the
central theme of conversation - he was 'satisfied' with the unagi at Tanuki - his standards are incredibly high - Tokyo spoils you. Only 6 weeks to go and I'm there!

kitty tv

the cats are enthralled with the outside world. too bad they can't go romp around outside - they make do with Lara's house plants. ;) it's SUNNY for the first time in weeks - we haven't seen so many cloudy days, like, EVER.

pda in the park

Mom would love this shot. ;) devin and I are grabbing whatever free time he can spare these days - he is working like a madman. At least the weather cooperated for us - it was near-perfect in Dolores Park!

me and the bride

i caught the frickin' bouquet!

my friend Elaine married her sweetheart, Joe, this past weekend and -
I still can't believe it - I caught the bouquet. It went straight to me.
If I hadn't lifted my hands up, it would have hit me on the head.
I think the universe might be trying to tell me something... or not! ;)

kitchen

it's a dorky picture, i know. me in the kitchen, so what. it's also not fair that i got up early to go running, i've been pretty good about exercising and STILL I look like i'm 15 pounds overweight . しかたがないな。。。

my new career - shopping assistant!

I was in Crate & Barrel w/ my mom and saw what may be the perfect coffee table for my new living room - it's actually not 'mine,' - I am helping my roommate pick out a new coffee table. If there's anyone who wants me to help them pick out some new furniture for THEIR house, drop me a line!

we're back together!

The day before Valentine's Day, I'm coming back from the corner store by my new house. I turn around to take pictures of the new neighborhood, and there he is, riding his bike right down my street. We hugged and cried, talked, and I saw the conviction in his face that he wanted things to change, that they would change, and that he wanted to try again. I felt a shift and I knew, I had to give it another chance or I'd regret it. So here we are - this was taken on Valentine's Day on the way to Dolores Park. It ended up being too cold outside, so we spent hours in a tea house, talking and laughing. We're back to dating, and so far it's wonderful. :D

say hello to my little friend

this is Dylan. he is a sweetheart and comes with the new place where I am currently living. Devin and I are officially back together after 2 weeks of heartbreak - i know, that was quick! Most people don't believe us when we say that we RANDOMLY saw each other on the street, hugged and cried, and started to work it out from there. He was late picking me up on Valentine's Day, so it's been bumpy, but we're bumping along. for now, I'm glad that I have my own space to live and work stuff out for myself. I needed that, regardless.

Housesitting

couch-surfing isn't ALL bad. The sunrise this morning was amazing. My friend Linnea is in Paris this week, and I am the lucky recipient of a housesitter appointment - her apartment is like a luxurious treehouse, the way it's situated on the hillside. It's nice to be sitting at a real desk and sleeping in a real bed, having space to spread out and do my thing, but it's also COLD up here. Can't wait to re-locate to the sunny Mission...

better

time is the great healer. I am still having trouble sleeping. Last night I had a nightmare. I was talking to D. and I called him
a "sanctimonious bastard." A tad strong. he could never be a bastard. Sanctimonious, well... not even that - more self-righteous. Stubborn. I think I'm harboring a lot of frustration at myself for trying to make a situation work that clearly was not right for me. Hopefully, next time, I won't make these silly mistakes again. I am being tested already with the process of finding a place to live, and making sure that I do not compromise my needs and desires for a break in the rent, or whatever the deal is.
It needs to feel like HOME. Bottom line. checking out all available options and saying no to the ones that immediately feel wrong. In the meantime, I am staying in the lovely Marina with a view of the Golden Gate Bridge...things could be worse! :)

done

it's over. devin and I are officially done. i was numb when I broke up with him yesterday. Today it hurts more. I feel like it's the right thing to move on, though. I hope I'm right. so many reasons why it will be an uphill battle in the long term, and I don't want my life to be an uphill battle. I thought bac k to the 'vacation' camping trip that Devin and I took to Big Sur - we hiked 10 miles uphill in the June heat - he HAD to go on a weekday because he hates crowds, so I took off work. everything is a chore, nothing is ever easy. What's more, we struggle to communicate constantly - there is hardly ever a moment where we can anticipate each other's thoughts, conclusions, or motivations. Five years later, we know each other so well but we can't work together. I figure, if it's this way 5 years in, it will be this way ad infinitum. it may be the right thing in the long rn, but i'm just sad. very sad.

the end...?

The sun has come out in San Francisco. This new year is off to a very rocky start. Relationships are complicated. All you can do is to look into your heart, see what you really want and try not to be afraid of it.

baby brother

Dad was playing around with a new scanner and obviously found one of Pat's more embarassing (but soooo cuuuuuute!) pictures. With all the women's clothing that he was made to wear as a kid (I put him in my ballet tu-tu's and once, I even made him wear my one-piece Wonder Woman swimsuit), it's amazing that he's straight.